Break My Heart

It's raining. Again. It seems that we're either in a drought or we're flooding around here. So sad, but glad that so many rain prayers have been answered.

A rainy day is a perfect day to do more "orphan prep".  We bunked some beds, sorted clothes, and cleaned. I started my list of all we need... to go from housing 2 kids upstairs, to 4 kids.

When I wasn't doing that, I was glued to the computer, researching. Our little hosting community pages are buzzing, because the earliest orphan flights are just a few weeks away. I'm learning all about adoption rules today. I wish I wasn't. I've been trying to not let my heart go there, as the children we are hosting aren't technically available for adoption. There are many families who have already started the adoption process for the kids they are hosting. I found my curious mind researching the costs and logistics. Some of these countries require both parents to spend anywhere from 3 weeks to 5 months in that country!  After that, they have to return to that country 2 other times. How do people do it with jobs and other children back in America? How do they find the funds? Such sacrifice. Such love.

The song that has been going through my head for the past 2 days has the lyrics, "Break my heart for what breaks Yours". That is the prayer for my family. That is my desire. I want us to see God's heart regarding these host children. I hope we show them the Love that transcends continents!  I feel that if we continue to read the word and learn more about Him, we'll know what breaks His heart. We'll know which direction to go and what to do.

To answer the many, many questions I've been asked regarding whether we will adopt these children who stay with us: 
I believe God will make it more clear than He has ever made a single thing in my life. And, for those who know me, God has gone over and beyond with confirmations in my life. There are hurdles. So many "reasons not to". I believe He will remove those... if His plan is for us to adopt these 3 siblings. 

Whom have I in heaven but You? And besides You, I desire nothing on earth. My flesh and my heart may fail, But God is the strength of my heart and my portion forever" Psalm 73:25,26