What If?

Some days I feel like I could talk forever about APD. This week, we had three parties that we attended which meant more APD awareness chat. I have yet to find anyone who really knows about this disorder. I'm constantly getting questions. In fact, just today, my dad was at a store and found a book on non-verbal disabilities and asked me if that's what Jared had. I send my dad a great deal of information regarding APD, and he's still confused. Since it is an invisible disability and there are no answers to how one develops it or how it's treated, it can be difficult to understand.

One man was intrigued by my story and asked about non-profits and if someone needs to start one. Another lady suggested I coordinate a "fun run" for APD awareness. Throughout all my chats regarding APD, one gal said something that really hit me. Even though we are dealing with our family's hardest financial situation right now (Ray didn't get 2 paychecks this spring due to snow and almost-government-shutdown), and even though APD isn't recognized in the medical journal (our insurance doesn't cover this very expensive therapy), there is something positive to consider. She said that she truly believes that our children were placed with us for a reason and asked if I could imagine what would have happened if Jared's birthmother had kept him. What if she had decided to raise him? Would she have noticed it? Would she have found someone who actually knew what APD was? Would she have the means to research and get him help? The last time we saw that sweet, young girl at the hospital, she wasn't in a position to do that. In all honesty, I couldn't imagine him being able to obtain the help he's getting here, especially with Dr. Champagne.

So, when I'm looking at the bills and payment schedules or I'm reluctantly teaching Jared about King Tutankhamun in his home school lesson, I do receive great peace in knowing we are doing whatever we can to help my beautiful son have the best possible tools in life. I am already seeing improvement in so many areas. We are abundantly blessed. 

God decided in advance to adopt us into his own family by bringing us to himself through Jesus Christ. This is what he wanted to do, and it gave him great pleasure. Ephesians 1:5 (NLT)