Over a month ago, I developed whip lash. Because I don't like seeing doctors, I kept hoping the pain would subside and I'd just forget about it. It didn't. The ibuprofen wasn't helping any longer so my husband wanted me to see a chiropractor. Just ask the doctor what kind of patient I am. How do people go there and get "adjusted"? Ouch! Unanticipated pain.
Then, today I had an appointment with a urologist. I have this unexplainable pain inside me and have been shuffled from various specialists and that's how I ended up in urology. I assumed I was just going to talk with the doctor this morning. Oh, no. She actually inserted a scope into my bladder to look around. Unanticipated pain.
But here are some interesting things that were confirmed this week:
- By the Dentist: I have extra roots in my mouth/teeth that "normal" folks don't have. I knew there were a couple teeth like that, but I guess all of them have an unanticipated, random root or two. Yes, you find this out by having lots of root canals.
- By the Doctor: I'm freakishly strong. I knew I had a lot of physical strength, as I'm pretty muscular, but apparently it's extraordinarily more than the average woman, according to my grip report. I'm still trying to figure out what to do with this information. Surely, there must be some calling for ridiculously strong women, other than crab fishing.
- By the Doctor: I don't have cancer in my bladder. (I didn't really think I did, but I had to ask her since she was 'all up in there')
- By the Doctor: I don't have cancer in any of my x-rays along my spinal chord. (I didn't really figure that I did, however, a friend will tell you that I have mentioned cancer often with all this unexplained abdominal pain I have.)
- By the Doctor: I have an extra vertebrae in the middle of my back. I've gone my whole life knowing that the reason I'm 5' 9" is because I've got extra bone in there. Oh, and I found out it's called a "deformity".
- By the Doctor: My bowel and colon are not in the normal spot that most folks are. They are lower. Another deformity. I've been on this earth for 37 years and have learned in the past year that I have 3 "deformities" (I had a deviated septum I was born with).
Some experts call these things "deformities". I truly laugh at the word "deformity" because I don't consider myself deformed. Sure, I'm weird... often called "unique", but nobody else knew I had an extra vertebrae or weird placement of internal organs. These things that make me unique are all hidden... kind of like Jared's disability. Most of the world doesn't know he has it. Most of the world will never see his symptoms (hopefully). But, yet, he lives with a pain.
He hits his head, thinking it'll make him think quicker or figure out answers. He puts up the emotional walls so he won't be made fun of, and learned to do that at an early age. My son has no deformities that I know of, but his disability was certainly unanticipated. Yet, just as all my deformities were unanticipated, I now know about them and know what I need to tell certain people/doctors to make sure they can help me in the way that my body needs. Now that we are aware of Jared's disability, we can better communicate with those who need to be made aware.
God blessed us all with our own uniqueness and today I'm embracing my unanticipated deformities and my son's unanticipated disability.
Thank you for making me so wonderfully complex! Your workmanship is marvelous—how well I know it. Psalm 139:14 (NLT)
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